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臍帶同胎盤

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 04:42:18 GMT

應唔應該留返個乾咗嘅臍帶好哩？

今日媽咪幫Cadence換片嗰時發現佢個臍帶終於跌咗出嚟。
護士姐姐用咗個夾薯片袋嘅夾夾住條臍帶，��家跌咗出嚟，係咪應該放在somewhere作為留念？
咁嗰個薯片夾可唔可以留返嚟夾薯片哩？定還是唔係咁衛生哩？

我生完個BB同胎盤後就叫jon快D即刻影低胎盤個樣，但係就唔記得咗影Cadence個樣，因為實在太痛喇。
護士姐姐仲問我係唔係要即刻畏奶，我本來都想，但係傷口實在太痛，所以只有摸下佢塊面仔同手仔... 當時佢仲係藍色嘅。聯針後我落返床坐上輪椅被推返病床後，護士姐姐就俾個胎盤我。我壓落去，好“un"，JON 話剪臍帶嗰時好似切年高咁”un"。我本來想帶返屋企影相，後尾我地要轉院所以留咗喺架車道，一個星期後我出院嗰時我呀媽又話驚佢發臭又惹到Cadence，所以最後都係俾返醫院處理。=(

算啦，不過有時候見到Cadence都覺得好驚訝原來佢係喺我個肚度走出嚟。

Friday, December 11, 2009

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 11:55:11 GMT

being a mother really isn't easy...

after hearing all the "comments" or "experiences" from other mothers, and comparing that with my experience, i really couldn't believe they could match up.

comments such as "it was very painful", "i had to take a lot of rest", "it will be a stressful time", "it is a learning experience"...

like..i've heard all that, but i didn't know how true and how simple they were until i experienced them myself. i can't say they were false in saying it, but i can't believe that they are true either, because they put it in such simple words that was so difficult to understand unless you experience it. well, i guess i will make another comment to put my experience into simple words, "it was truly a learning experience."

sigh! i guess that's what mothers say...
anyway..i miss home..i want to go back soon..

i was looking at the photos i posted on all the stuff we have prepared for cadence and i just can't wait to use them..i can't wait to bring her home...sigh..

God, please help her to be able to come home soon (so I can go home too)...

1 more week~

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 12:25:07 GMT

i'm kind of excited...
1 more week and my mom and my sister will be here la~~
which means i will deliver soon...

my sister's birthday is coming soon....hm..should do something with her...
i mean..it's really rare for her to have a ONE WEEK break...

anyways..
i think i'm excited for delivery coz i don't have to work.....
hahahahaha.......

almost 37 weeks.

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 15:24:36 GMT

cadence is almost full term la...that means she can come out any time...
people are starting to see me and ask...ur still here?
yeah..i wonder when it will come...and how it will be like...

the only thing i worry about is my work, how am i going to pass down the stuff while i'm away...
sigh i guess i just need to work more...

anyway, i wonder if the baby will be cute...
i hope she will be healthy...
i hope i can give birth naturally and recover quickly...

so sleepy...

i am freely loved.

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 08:04:56 GMT

the phrase "freely loved" never really occurred to me until a few seconds ago.
i've heard a lot of giving freely, expressing freely, freedom of speech, and so on.
but it's all about output, but why does output have to be free? doesn't it naturally come out? is it because we are constrained by society? if you always have to do something in order to earn that freedom, is it really free? why do people always need others to do something or give them attention in order to feel loved?
why do u call it free anyway?

in my perspective, the REAL "free" stuff is when there's no fighting for freedom or giving free stuff, you basically just stand there and u get it.

you don't receive anything, you don't do anything, and you are loved. that's what free is...

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 07:57:00 GMT

唔知長期被無止境嘅野轟炸會變成點咧?
近來太多長遠嘅野要諗喇...

好開心終於可以用mac打返廣東話拼音...真係要多謝CantonIM
雖然普通話的確係好，但係點都比唔過由細講到大嘅廣東話~

呀...舒服晒~~

Friday, October 23, 2009

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 09:14:38 GMT

even though i still don't speak enough korean but from what i can understand there's already two stores that i am a regular customer of that made a comment on me being pregnant...i wonder how many more if i was in a country that i understood the language of....thank God i'm not in hong kong...

they all said they thought i was a student...and they looked at me in a weird way coz i was pregnant...and then i immediately corrected them and said nono, i am a teacher...and then i point somewhere and say "husband"...just to make sure that they know i am working, i have a husband, and i am pregnant, not a student that got pregnant without getting married or something....sighhhh do i really look THAT young?
though i don't dress as old as i should be...oh well, anyway the two stores were the "kageh" (store) across from my apartment and the innisfree cosmetics store across from my school....i've been regular customers there the past year and a half...esp. now my consumption of milk is so high that i have go to the store once every 2-3 days....and with innisfree..i love it when "the man" is there...he recognizes me and today i bought an eyecream (since i used up the previous one) and he gave me a lot of masks and samples! i'm happy =)

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 10:28:55 GMT

i am a sucker for routine, predictability, consistency, and preparation. though i can't say i do all that perfectly all the time, but they sure give me a sense of security when things happen the way they are supposed to, at the proper time, and with full preparation for it...so it kind of drives you crazy when something big is about to happen but you have no idea when, how, what, where, who, and the consequences...

such as...

when will i labour?
when will i deliver?
how will i deliver? c-section? natural? with epidural?
what will that feeling be?
where will i deliver...
who is that coming out of me?!?
what will happen after the baby is born...?

i just want to know when i will deliver and the whole process of it, but since i am striving for a natural birth i guess i just have let it "naturally happen"....argh...

Monday, October 19, 2009

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 08:07:15 GMT

唔識0甘多野就唔好質疑0甘多野。
如果你的知識唔夠你連問問題的權利都無...

下雨

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 12:37:53 GMT

今晚落雨落到好似打風gum...
其實覺得有d安全，有d開心。
今天早上還覺得很累很沒有活力，但是每當打風的時候就會覺得很安全，好像在空氣裡有很多事情包圍著我。每滴雨點都可能是一個祕密或者過去的回憶，一次過落下來。留在屋子裡總是覺得很安全，特別是當我聽到打大風的呼呼聲和打雷。我記得每一次暑假回到香港的夏天的時候，總是有一兩天是打風大到不得了。家的窗口會不停的搖動，那些風好像要撞進來。就是從海面上形成的風一直吹到海邊的三十七樓高的窗口。其實過去那兩個暑假都沒有看到風球，真的有一點掛念。

不過為他人著想，真的要為一些露宿者祈禱，不知道他們在這個風大雨大的情況下是怎麼樣抵擋的。

那謀些藝術家會否有小許自私呢？
常常留在自己的空間裡面，只能用他的藝術品來告訴別人他的祕密。

這個世界變成甚麼了？
究竟甚麼是對，甚麼是應該，甚麼是值得？